The World through Nigel™

Rejection

2011-01-23T16:34:00.002+08:00

I hope the best for you.

I have regained my courage and aim.

Now the part is gettin back up on both feet..

And if ever you'll give me one more go, I'll take it for sure.

As for now, continue living life to the fullest.

Yesterday was mad

Courage

2011-01-21T00:32:00.003+08:00

I got courage to do so many stupid stuffs but I'm thinking so hard to just do what really matters to me... Sometimes when decisions and actions really matter, when everything you plan to do may change your future and happiness, when you do not know the past, when you have so many doubts before you take the plunge..... only then, did I realise how much it will take to have a little bit of faith in myself.

If I never have this courage, I'll hope someone else who deserves such joy does. I know I may not be able to, but I hope if I'm given one chance, I can create another genuine smile, another sense of fullness.

I am not perfect, but I hope she'll accept what shortcomings I may have. But, how will I get the courage to even fight for a chance?

All those plays and folly that amounted to nothing, I'm now willing to commit. But it may be too late.

All I hope is to see her happy everyday. And if ever a guy comes buy and provides that to her, I'll be reluctant, but also knowing that's the best for her, and leave silently.

Because love is about self sacrifice and care.

I hope I get my strength one day, and be the guy that gives her joy.
With you by my side, I will always be the luckiest happiest boy on Earth, and you'll never know how much you mean to me because words can never describe fully how I will feel.

2011

2011-01-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

A new year. One that I hope will be filled with happiness and joy. The next phase of my life is now inevitable. Memories of the past, etched with warmth in my mind, while I bask in the present and anticipate the future to come.

My resolution for this year is 1.) More happiness for me and those around me
2.) Do well in my A level (all A!)
3.) Move to my new home!
4.) Improve in tennis get a national Top 15 u-18 ranking
5.) Be a better person as a whole
Will certainly do my best for it.

During these few days, it has suddenly dawned upon me,something is missing that would make me a fuller person. I hope I will finally decide what I would do. It takes immense courage to put everything on the line.. for that single moment of truth.

I hope I'll be able to do it, so that I will never regret knowing that I never did try for the rest of my life. Many pretty girls out there, but only you make me happy. All those plays and trips with the others, meant nothing. Its only now that I realise -when something really means alot to you, that will be the true test.

Yes I cant explain the feeling I get, I just know I want to see you happy every moment. Wish myself all the best. At least I know I tried.. JURANAMO!

6.) For you to be in my world.
So that when I tumble and turn in the barrel, I know that finally, somewhere out there, there's a girl, hoping I would make it out unhurt, caring for me.

I love my new house and 2011.

All the best to everyone out there. -Nigel

Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.

WHy i love school

2010-04-12T22:20:00.002+08:00

Its green like nature
I get to enjoy nature
I get to suffer wif a few noobs
I have lovely teachers
I love green colour
I have alot of time
I like to take 12
I enjoy being among cute Nerdies

I love my school. =D

GG.

2010-04-02T18:56:00.002+08:00

You cant change a person. You can only change yourself.

I hate to study but i love to study

I hate school and i still hate school

but i love life.

Sometimes u need to spend time mugging then when u play become more song

Life is what you make of it. Always has been, always will be.

In the air.

2010-03-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

Never question if you are in love or not, because if you were you wouldn't need to ask.

so i thought..

How to Cherish Junior college

2010-03-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made a difference.

It's easy to be thankful for the good things.

A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.

I would love to thank the great mind who said these wise words.

I promise that this journey throughout my JC life would be worthwhile.

You were my everything

2009-04-12T21:14:00.001+08:00

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying

-Aviation

QUantum

2009-03-31T22:14:00.001+08:00

not following the herd, not following convention is your responsibility. and thats the point where no matter how many people tell you u are wrong or right, u r not dependant on their approval. If we question our own actions our own actions and thought process and make a concious desicion to what we feel is right everyday, thats what is feels like to be alive.

quantum!

Time to Fly away

2009-03-14T09:55:00.003+08:00

Well, the last day of school was surprisingly interesting haha.

Now its time for me to fly to HK and stay in my uncle's house for 2days and disneyland there for 2 days.

I'll try to put like one pic after i get back haha

Wish myself luck =X

and i got my guitar finally, time to learn while my guitar gently weeps T_T

/I'm not rich, i'm just happy

They're both convinced that a sudden passion joined them. Such certainth is beautiful, but uncertainty is more beautiful still.

Long Time No See

2009-03-06T22:25:00.002+08:00

My Manual for Sec 4 survival and 6 points:

Firstly I would need high socks! highest ever vs socks to ensure the 6 points.

Secondly I would need to study for my freaking SPA shit.

Thirdly I must study and buy my guitar and ukulele

Finally i must go gym every week to train my I am legend body

Everyday would be fun and exciting for my sec 4 =D

This past few weeks have been meaningful and unforgettable. I had just been through an epic journey all the way to the school tennis finals. It is now time to leave that experience to my memoirs and settle down. time to study and play my guitar haha

history in the making

2009-02-25T19:48:00.001+08:00

Vs lost in the finals to acs (i)

we have came so far where nobody had expected

even though i lost my 1st singles i learnt that

it doesnt matter whether we win or lose. it's how we play the game.=D

I'll never have this experience ever again. It was worthwhile..while it lasted

Finals

2009-02-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

It seems to me. Vs tennis turned from zero to pwnage. Lets just own acs i again just this one last time ok? =D YOU CAN DO IT VS haha

amitabh bachan shall cheer us on!

: lets just go to paris.. Just you and me.

Recollections

2009-02-16T18:29:00.002+08:00

	You were beautiful..always cute. you were wonderful. you had an interesting and fun thinkings, I always agreed.. Sadly we were never meant to be. In this small world, I may never get to meet or talk to you ever again like we always did. What had happened to the fun we had, it was all gone now and is our past. It is time to move on..I finally got back on my feet.

I always thought we still had the chance.

I have moved on to a better life and met new wonderful people along the way. I only Hope for you to live happily.

/If you ever need me, i'll still be there. always.

My Valentine

2009-02-14T20:51:00.002+08:00

What did i do? morning i went to white sands to bash kent seah up then paid for his taxi with yx and their friend who is a girl from i dunno what school.

Reached then disbanded from them and met lumpda with gun and abner who cut just cutted his T.O.P eyebrow. Soon.. ill have those

Cedar was hot and noisy but quite fun. Then went to watch movie with yx chanel nicole and her friend. Benjamin BUTTon was long but quite nice la.. out of the box movie.

btw i met nic teo who was in his gay co uniform at bedok hawker centre... sad boy who cant ask the girl of his dreams out cos he had dinner..
and sue ate abacus and saw duck and chionged.. somehow they dashed away with red faces. haha. (im innocent)

Oww awhile more till i go and watch the valent sunrise =D bye young ones

When you make a commitment to a relationship, you invest your attention and energy in it more profoundly because you now experience ownership of that relationship.

NIGEL

2009-02-07T22:13:00.001+08:00

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

Tennis

2009-02-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

Well, Nowadays very busy whole day tennis.. hit balls non stop man. the balls must hit nice nice summore lols. btw i cannot think properly now cos i just finish a balls wackin session. well ill just leave a final quote for today..

When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.thus.. little kids reading this.. never get too dissapointed and go for other oppurtunities heading right in ur face. =D

2009-02-01T17:00:00.004+08:00

If you're going my way, i'll walk with you.

1st Post

2009-02-01T16:41:00.001+08:00

Well. This is my 1st post for my 1st blog so it sure feels quite weird. Even though I do not know who will read this, I feel an ‘’unexplainable’’ need for typing at least something for my new blog. (I actually do not know what a blog is for). And .. to answer for why my skin sucks.. the reason is I truly cannot find anything simpler. =D
Ok enough with excitement about my new blog haha. I am now going to write something about the guy behind this blog, which is Me (-.-“).
I am somehow feeling even weirder writing in such a way for a blog as I see most people writing in typical Ways which is fast and easy, I just could not bring myself to write a short 1st post as I wud only post on rare occasions. I got my

Billion word essay:
NigeL Toe™

Ok. People who do not know me may be wondering where did I get inspiration for such a one of a kind and totally cool surname. Well I also dunno why it came about,, but since im so one of a kind, I somehow feel special and unique, different from the rest =D.
Prelude: I always felt that I was here on this Earth for a reason. Ever Since I was young I always only had this thinking that everything revolving around me happens because of me. I always wondered why am I only within one body ( I do not know how to exactly describe it) and I would never remember how I even came upon to being Nigel. I am sure everyone have the same feeling of just appearing into their lives and not knowing how they actually came about .. :maybe the reason is because we never remember anything when we were newborns and only start remembering things when we were like toddlers? So that may be the reason why we never remember how we actually began.
I would always wonder whether others also had their own spirit and thinking when i was young and even until today I still do not have my answer.. I can never be sure if I was the only one truly existent and others just made to revolve in my life or if everyone was like me , having their own ‘’Life’’- which is an own way of thinking and making their own actions and to them, I was just any other person made to revolve around their lives or something.
I believe that everything in life happens for a reason and my guess is that everyone sees the world through their eyes similar to me. Well if anyone has their opinions or comments please share them on msn (= hehe.

Oh im done for my first post.. cancelling like 2000 words behind so u guys could not read ^^

2009-01-31T18:26:00.001+08:00

Nich- here. doing up nigel's blog =D